go.

I kinda sorta really just wanna have sex, cuddle, and fall asleep next to him tonight<3

^ miss nights like that, especially now that I’m working all the time

It’s been a busy past week, so sorry that I haven’t been on lately!

Last weekend, I started working, so that’s what I literally did ALL weekend. I had Monday, Tuesday, and today off, so I’ve been catching up on sleep & spending time with Alex while I can. I have to say I’m really loving this whole having a job thing, :P

I work every day for the next week, so if I’m not on a terribly lot, don’t worry. That’s why.

I also start my third semester of college this coming up Tuesday (June 3rd), so that’ll take up a bit of my free time besides work. Don’t worry though, I’ll still be on as much as possible for those I talk to, and whom follow me. xD

So, I’ve completely slacked on my 365 Day Challenge for the past two weeks, so I’m just going to start from today and continue with it. (I suck at these things, lol)

Day 11: The worst advice you’ve ever heard, or been given

I’ve never really been given “bad” advice or anything that can be consider the “worst”. But going to the high school I did and living in the small Midwest town that I do (in Missouri), I’ve heard some pretty shitty advice. As much as I hate to say it, I went to a high school where a lot of the girls are known to “slut around” and do stupid shit. One girl I went to school with, her boyfriend of like 3 years cheated on her, and everyone clearly knew about it because he bragged about it to his friends. Well, one of her “friends” told her that she just needed to sleep with as many people as possible to “get back at him” and make him jealous, seeing what he did to her was wrong. So, she took that advice and ran with. And I mean, really ran with it. Not sure the exact number, but one of the guys that she had slept with was her boyfriend’s best friend, and in the process 3 things happened because of that advice that was given to her. 1) a video of her and of the guys got around school, 2) she got pregnant, and 3) she earned herself a nice STD.

Yeah, talk about shitty advice.

I got a job today! (:

Finally.

I’m soooooooooo excited.

just thought I’d let you guys know, xD

why not?

but how do I get rid of the awkward tan line from my swimsuit bottoms, that not even going to the tanning bed helps and I can’t really go to the river bottomless?

(maybe i’ll get back on track soon… maybe)

Day 8: Things that make you sad

A lot of things make me sad.
Child abuse. Those abused animals / poverty commercials. Seeing little old people who need help with simple things and no one bothers to help them. Watching my grandparents getting older and sicker. Wayne, and how things used to be. The movie P.S. I Love You. The fact that Harry Potter is over.

I don’t know, there’s a lot more that make me sad, but I can’t think of them right now. lol.

Day 6: Something you would like to change about yourself

Hmm, something that I would like to change about myself? I think I’d probably change my insecurity. Or my jealousy issues. Or the fact that I get mad WAY too easily and blow things out of proportion. My insecurity because I’m always doubting myself and putting myself down. Even though I have a boyfriend who is constantly telling me that I shouldn’t be like that. I know that I shouldn’t be like that, but I always feel like I’m not good enough in some aspect, and I’m just really hard on myself sometimes. I get really insecure around people, especially people I don’t know, and it just bothers me, lol. My jealousy because it sometimes causes problems with me and my boyfriend (a lot sometimes it seems) because I get too jealous (my insecurity plays a part in this too). I guess it just makes me seem clingy, demanding, and controlling at times, even though that’s really not the case. I guess deep down it has a lot to do with the fact that I’m scared that my boyfriend is going to one day think that I’m not good enough for him, or that he’ll see / meet someone else and be like, ” I wanna be with her instead of Jess”. It’s stupid I know, because I’ve been with him for three years, but yeah.. My anger because I’m pretty quick tempered and stubborn. A lot of the time, I blow things way out of proportion, and it’s not always pretty. I get it from my grandpa, but I know that it’s a big reason why there’s been so many fights and differences between me and my boyfriend in the past.

Honestly though, I can’t really choose just one thing that I’d change about myself, but those would probably a few of the main things that come to mine, at least at this point in time.

& I was just wondering, does it hurt?

Why not? Might make me smile and.feel better, :p

but I guess it’s alright since we’re getting an ounce of dank today after I go to Easter dinner at my dad’s, :P

life will be good. ♥

his cat is cute, but he’s an evil fuck too. lmao.
doesn’t help though that Alex like’s to instigate him, :P

yet, I can’t sleep. i’m speeding balls off of aderol, again. third night in a row.. I need to stop this shit, lolol.

^ pftttt, yeah. okay.