Why not? Might make me smile and.feel better, :p

how are you with someone so long, and you build them up so much, just to let them down as hard as you possibly can? how do you let the person you’ve been with the longest, and the person you used to do everything for, go? we’ve been in love with each other since we were both sixteen.. we’ll be 20 this year.. how can you just throw it all away? how can you look at me, and honestly tell me this is what you want? I bet you can’t…

the hardest part is knowing that it’s already been a week, and you haven’t changed your mind yet.. we’ve talked and spend time together, and had sex and whatnot (go figure..) but we haven’t worked shit out..

you still tell me that you don’t know what you want yet. that you love me, but you don’t know if you want to be in a relationship right now.. I just wish you’d make up your mind. it’s fucking with my head, but I just can’t seem to walk away from you.. i’d do anything to make it work, and I know at one point you would to. I thought you still would since you say you love you. (which I believe you do, just that you’re not sure how to act about it and it scares you). I really would, I just need to know something..

I just, I don’t know what to do right now.. because I know what I want, but I don’t know what you want, and it’s killing me.. :/

so, my boyfriend and i’s two year anniversary is coming up on Saturday. i’m trying to decide what to get him or do for him to make the day special. i’d kind of like to be able to make something special / creative that I know he, being a typical guy, would love.

a really close friend of his, whom I asked for advice and i’m sure that he talked to my boyfriend about before getting back to me, suggested that on our anniversary to pretty much, “be his bitch” as he put it. by spending the day doing things for him, and so on, so forth. in example, blow jobs, sex, cooking for him, rubbing his back, etc. I wouldn’t mind doing this, because he did things for me on valentines day and it would be his turn this time.

my boyfriend also talked to me the other day about “spicing things up” and trying new things if you know what I mean, :P

the only thing is, i’d like to do it creatively and such. and i’m not sure how to go about it. so, i’m asking for a guys opinion on the matter, or anyone’s really. i’m up / down for anything, (: just need something to work with!

OHHHHH. and in our relationship, kinky is good. js. if that helps with any ideas, xD

bite marks and bruises, ♥

mmm, I have them all over my shoulders from over the course of the past couple of days with Alex. the ones from today are the more noticeable though. I love them. turns me on so fucking much when he bites me like that, ;)

pfffffft.

we smoked like, 2 blunts last night & road tripped and just chilled. then, today we smoked a joint, another blunt, and numerous bowls. this added onto Xanex and Morphines, and the vodka, this weekend - Monday/Tuesday, have been reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallly good. I like being fucked up with my boyfriend, and doing fun, chill, relaxing shit.

which, btw. what’s better? :P

high sex, drunk sex, or sober sex?

I got to see my boyfriend for the first time in two weeks.

uh, of course there was ALOT of sex.

not that i’m complaining, but yeah. yanno. :P

everyone’s all like, “in a relationship, sex isn’t important.” are you implying that if you’re not in a relationship, that it IS important? cause it kind of seems like that, at least the way i’m taking it..  no? okay then, here is my OPINION on this matter.

even though sex is obviously not the most important aspect of a relationship, i’d say it is pretty important, to a point anyways. i’m a strong believer that sex shouldn’t wait until marriage (that’s just my opinion though). however, i do believe that marriage is / should be forever (though shit happens i understand that). BUT if you’re going to marry someone, shouldn’t you know what you should be expecting in your relationship sex wise? maybe it’s just me, but i know there is somebody else that probably feels the same way. i mean seriously though.

say (hypothetically speaking), you’re with someone for a few years, blah blah blah, and you get married. and you waited till marriage to have sex. well, the sex completely sucks. and that causes one or both of you to become unhappy, and screws with your relationship, potentially in the long run causing some infidelity problems, etc. and yes, i understand this obviously doesn’t happen ALL the time, but it can / does happen i’m sure. if waiting till marriage works for you, well then shit, i’m happy for you. but if it doesn’t?

then what? what happens next?

see, these are the things that run through my head when people say that sex isn’t important. not only is it a part of life and how each and every one of us got put on this planet, and are able to breathe life, but it can affect relationships, believe it or not. so therefore, i believe that it is ONE important aspect of relationships. i might get a lot of shit about this, but again, this is just MY OPINION, nothing more.

plus, sex is just good, ;)

what are your views / opinions on this matter?

so many pictures of drugs, sex, and cute couples on my dash.. and i’m insanely jealous right now. because I haven’t had any of that for two weeks. and I won’t until Tuesday. fuckkkkkkk.

the moment I get to fucking see you, i’m not going to be able to keep my hands off of you. I just wanna hug you and kiss you and have sex with you for hours, and then never let you out of my sight again. sounds good to me, <3

can’t wait to see you!

& it’s driving me so fucking crazy.
i feel you here, see your face in my dreams, and wear your jacket because it smells like you.
and i just wanna cuddle and have sex with you and never let you go again.

okay? good.

^ this question. lol.

oh my god. i would have to say that the most random place i’ve ever had sex was probably the time Alex and i had sex in a cops bed. lololol, don’t ask. xD

because then when I want to have sex and cuddle, I can’t. because you’re obviously not here.

wtf.

difficult at times, but the thrill from it, and the anxiety at the thought of being caught? makes it soooo much hotter, :P

we’re broken up, and for real this time. and yet i had sex with you.

I HAD SEX WITH YOU.

you made it seem afterwords that i had a chance with you to make things right. and that we could go back to the way things were eventually. and then you told me it was for the sex, and then called me a whore because i didn’t stop it and i wanted to and i kept going and i wanted to again and i was going to let it happen again tonight.

and then bam, you snapped. and me? I FUCKING BEGGED YOU TO SPEND ONE MORE NIGHT WITH ME, AND DO EVERYTHING JUST ONE LAST TIME.

ohmygod. i begged you to have sex with me. i told you we could be friends with benefits because 1)it’s a way to keep you in my life, and 2) i realized that i can’t not be friends with you despite my reasoning behind it in my other post, and 3) i like sex.

I’M A FUCKING WHORE.